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I dream of the day when loneliness won’t find me,

Everytime I think of the possibility.

I dream of the day when you will be in my arm,

Knowing that being with you will pose you no harm.

I dream of the day when we can be together,

Without suspecting eyes that stare.

I dream of the day when life can be normal,

When I can tell the world that your presence in my life is ideal.

I dream of the day when I can touch you,

And you can touch me peacefully too.

I dream that love is enough for my hopes to brim,

And I dream that I no longer dream.

What’s with batang yagit’s site that made me vote for it? Here are few of the reasons:

• Very informative blogs. Mapapa-wow ka sa mga matututunan mo specially when it comes to techy stuffs.
• Parang travel agency na nagpopromote ng mga napuntahan nyang places. Feeling ko tuloy i’ve been there na rin.

46 minutes ago, i was so damn pissed off by a group of people who don’t have anything to do with their own fuckin lives but criticize and scrutinize other people’s stuff. These are people who, even at an early age, have politics stuck inside their hollow heads as if it is a banner hanging on a pole. True enough, they are dumbheads. Consider asking a question to someone when you know very well that the answer to this is as easy as getting the sum of one plus one. Where’s your logic people? I am not in a habit of naming names and pointing my fingers. You know who you are. And you better shut your mouths up coz your dumbness surfaces without you knowing it. Do your self a favor. Get a life!

i am so disappointed.. the very people whom i thought will understand me and my situation don’t seem to care at all..

its past 12 nn and here i am inside the four walls of an internet cafe, blurting all the pain i feel inside..i cnt seem to find the right words to express how i feel..really, there’s nothing permanent..one point there’s the rush of happiness and then there’s upsurge of frustration topped with sadness as garnish..

am i being unreasonable? am i being indifferent? am i being selfish? i don’t know and i don’t wanna think about that anymore..

i am sad..

i am listening to an old friend’s favorite song now. and just as i listen to it, memories come haunting me. i wanna scream out loud, fly up high, and never go back. but i cant..

its good to hear his voice again. and better to listen to him saying that he misses me. coz in one way or another, i miss him too. been so in denial for the past months.

last monday, we had our xmas party…one thing unusual was that we didnt stay at one place only…we had an urban tour…first, we played PAINTBALL at mts…then we had MASSAGE at asian massage…next, we ate at buffet palace…and finally, we headed to visa where we had our gift-giving, group presentations and of course, walang kamatayang videoke sessions…

it was the best party i attended this year…not because it was filled with really exciting activities but because the people i went out with were really the truest persons…walang halong kaplastikan at walang kasamang pretensions…its good to know i hav them with me these days…hirap makatagpo ng mga taong gaya nila…

whenever i feel down, i jst think about how many people love and care for me…and then i realize that even if the world has turned its back on me, i still have them and  that makes things a whole lot better and a whole lot easier to comprehend…

im here sa HQ…its good to be back…

so wats up wid me and my life for the past days? ay cge lang ug laag…exam wik man unta pero cge lang ug laag…aw ok ra man pud…stress reliever…hehe

im caught up in a web…i know should not feel this way but the feeling’s creeping down my veins…syet! hirap i-explain…i know im slowly losing it ("it" kaha? o "him"?)… ambot! gugma jud lagi bah…makes me wonder if he also feels the same way…ay duh, klaro na gani kaayo sa tv2x na wala na jud, magwonder pa jud ug maski unsa…ina! wake up!

heller! nag-emote na pud ko…

i just hate passing by roxas gate when it gets dark na, mcdo drive thru, greenhills, damosa, airport overview…syet! der r things u jst dnt forget in a blink of an eye…

hay salamat…natapos din ang kalbaryo…kaila mog one whole week na sunud-sunod ang exams? wahhh…grabeh…makabuang! oh wel, human na man jud so rest2x sa gamay…ay dili pa diay, naa pa diay sa tuesday…at least duha na lang…and then after that, woohoooooo…off we go to bora! so excyted nah…

hmmm…ngano daw ko nagblog2x karon? wala lang…trip lng…gikapoy man gud ko…ang magbasa ani kay tanga…joke lng…d btaw oi…nonsense man gud ni bah…hehehe…stress reliever lng…mura daw kog na-stress noh? hehe…

ay panibagong weekend na naman, panibagong rest days na himuon gihapong work days…wahaha…immune na ata akong body sa pagkabusy…mashock pa gni akong system kung wala koy gnabuhat…sama karon…mura kog mabuang kay wala ko kabalo unsa dapat akong buhaton…wala koy maisip unsa akong pwede himuon…kasabot ka? yaw na lang sabta…makrung2x lng ka…hehehe

so to end this blog, since nonsense man ang sugod, nonsense na lng pud ang ending…dli bitaw…seryoso dpt ang ending…despite the very busy sked ds past days, ive learned something…ive learned to let go…let go of d past, of d present, and of d future…gets mo? ako oo…

hello…i feel nothing…so numb with all the pain…
my head’s full of blah-blahs and nonsense…
so tired, so exhausted, so wasted…so sick!

what’s wrong? what’s right?
they’re all the same…nothing different…

issues here…issues there…issues everywhere…
wanna join the fun? nah…tired of that…had my share…

who’s to be blamed? whose fingers will point to who?
don’t know anymore…maybe me…maybe them…maybe all of us…

>    follow them around the hauz evrywhere they go

>    pluck someone’s hair out and shout DNA!

>    moo when they say ur name

>    have 3 imaginary friends that u talk to all d time

>    at evrythin they say, shout LIAR!

>    hold their hands and whisper to them "i see dead people"